firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
We’re called upon to trust often in this business. Trust the process, trust that our teachers aren’t full of crap, trust that if we do the work, something will come of it…
Trust that we’ll be remembered when we’re great and not forgotten when we suck.
Trust that they will forget when we suck, but not forget us!
Trust that we’ve got a handle on the fear, so it won’t be in control when we get our shot.
Trust that we GET a shot!
It’s tough to trust anyone these days. So with all of that swirling in our heads as we approach anything creative… whom do you trust? And how do you trust?
Starts with you, boo. In the Teaching Series classes, we’ve discussed taking direction and cold reading (reading something you’ve never seen before out loud). So while it’s pretty clear that you have to trust your director, the choices you make based on that, begin with trusting your own passion for the work, the months or years of study you’ve put in, and that you wouldn’t even BE in front of a director if they didn’t think you were worthy. The hardest part of all of this is remembering that you ARE worthy! Even when you’re by yourself, practicing your cold reading, it requires you to trust your instincts in fleshing out believable characters with no preparation.
Trust takes practice. And people often lose trust when they feel betrayed by others. A natural, and necessary protective human reflex. But what about when we let ourselves down? We have a chance at something and we blow it. We start beating ourselves up and tearing ourselves down. This isn’t a protective reflex, this is an unnecessary, but very common breakdown of our trust in ourselves. When you make a mistake, or just weren’t ready for the task at hand, it’s not the end of the world. In fact, it’s an opportunity for a breakthrough. You get back up, dust yourself off, and get your butt back to work. Take the time to learn from the mistake.
DO what you need to do so this mistake doesn’t happen again! Then get back up with this new wisdom in your pocket. Just the fact that you GOT back up is a huge victory! Celebrate that and you’ll be surprised at your ability to create something new and amazing from that.
Many years ago, I read for the part of Goro for the Mortal Kombat movie. I did a great first audition. Even made it to final callbacks. I had to read live for a panel of casting and studio people in an on-camera type, intimidating room where they sat in elevated chairs looking down at me and running me through the copy. I freaked out inside. Still did a fair audition, but my inner turmoil turned into a big, dramatic huffing and puffing after the read, like I’d just lifted a car over my head. They mentioned that I probably wouldn’t be capable of sustaining the role for a whole film if one little audition made me that tired. I insisted I wasn’t tired, just invested in the role. I thanked them politely, then left devastated, thinking that I just blew the biggest opportunity of my life.
But the next day, I got back up. Busted through the continuous internal beatings, and auditioned for a little anime show. Certainly not the same level as this movie, but made me feel a little better. I probably booked it. Don’t remember. But I kept moving forward. Now, more than 20 years later, I get to voice Sub-Zero in the Mortal Kombat games. The full circle took a while, but apparently, I used some of that fuel from that mistake to build an entire career. I trusted myself enough to get back up and try again.
As I was reading this back just now, I realized I never found out who ended up booking that role, so I looked it up. It was my dear friend, the amazing Frank Welker. Pretty good company to even be in the running with – so early on in my career! They probably had an offer out to him the whole time and were just looking for a backup plan. If Frank had declined the role, I actually may have still been in the running. So all of that anguish… all of that self doubt… may have been completely unfounded anyway.
Believe in yourself first, guys. You’re capable of so much more than you can ever imagine. Fail magnificently, and trust that you can grow from it. So excited to see what you bring to the party!